you guys want to know what's going on in my head?
since so many of you people have been bitching about my mood swings and how i never have a reason to go off on you.. i decided to make a nice long ass post about it.

at this point i do not give a shit what any of you have to say about the way i am acting or what i am doing. NONE OF YOU. do you understand that? that does not exclude anyone. so when i tell you i don't care about your opinion DO NOT BE SUPRISED.

i am so sick of you people thinking that you can just walk all over me. i know why you think it too, because i let your punk asses get away with it. NOT ANYMORE. i am done making you people happy when it makes me miserable. if you don't like it, fuck you.

i have stood by your sides through thick and thin. supported every little thing you've ever done or COVERED UP YOUR MISTAKES *cough* because i felt that is what a friend should do. for the guys who this is directed towards don't expect it anymore. if i EVER speak to one of your girlfriends i will not hesitate to mention the games you play. don't think for a second i'm fucking around with you either.

jackie - i'm sick of your shit. PERIOD. you expect me to just jump up and do whatever you wish anytime you want me to. stop being selfish. you need to grow up. i'm your friend, not your doormat. i don't even want to be that anymore. infact, i don't owe you a fucking explanation. have a nice life.

eric - you pull the same shit i do all the time.. and yet when i do it, it's a huge deal. NO LONGER. you treat me like that.. i'll treat you like that.

there is so much more shit that i could just sit here typing about, but am not going to. i know you guys are not my friends.. and i know that you will just go tell someone about my personal life.

btw jackie and eric... this was not directed just towards you... the rest of the people will know who they are.

fuck i can't wait to move.