ricky...
i'm making an entry about ricky because he wanted me to. so yeah... here goes. =)

i love you ricky. everything about you. i know it's hard putting up with my shit sometimes.. but you do. it means a lot to me. i really hope i can go with you to virginia because i can't stand having to go without you again. i know i always just go "oh, okay" when you tell me you have to leave or some shit... but i do care... i just say that because i know it's your job and there's nothing either of us can do about it. i want to be there for you for the rest of our lives. i want us to make our decisions together. you keep saying i don't know what i want in my life yet... but after 3 years i have no doubt in my mind what i want is you. we've been through everything together. they say that when you find who you want to spend your life with.. there will be no explanation as to why.. you just know. that's how i feel. i can see us growing old together (you stealing my pudding... hitting me in the shins with your cane... stealing my wig). well anyway... i love you.. and i'm glad that we're finally being open with each other. okay.. i'm going to stop embarassing you now.. haha. <3

i also know this wasn't what you expected. TOO BAD. =p